Revival

I want to be revived by reincarnation

I'm physically here

I'm physically here. Mentally, I'm not here in this world. It's going to cause me despair for the entire time. I'm scared I suppose. It seems to me like I'm spoiled by life. It's just like eating dessert before dinner. In the same analogy, positive emotions are great but just like the dessert, I am spoiled because of the emotions. I can't even grasp positive emotions. I want to be an optimist, but I can't even grasp optimism no more. I don't want myself to mentally disagree with the physical, so I just let the worst possible emotions and thoughts pass me by, but when I do so, they seem to come back to me and they keep being here. When I write, some of this emotion can escape, but there's still going to be an emptiness in my life

You Just Need To Live For The Moment

I spend my entire life with only fools gold. Fools gold is an analogy for the happiness, satisfaction, and positive emotions that I have in life. It can't compensate for my despair. I need to write or else I don't know what to say. I think there's another realm beyond life that I sometimes think about.

It took me 1000 nights!

Four thousand nights, and a thousand lights being on my own https://soundcloud.com/frenship/1000-nights

The Extreme Speed Of Time

Oh, how fast time is going by, especially this month. What's going on? The problem is that I've been bored too much in my life. Seems to me as if it should still be the beginning of April. I hate when daylight lasts too long because it seems to disrupt my natural production of melatonin. Melatonin, or other chemicals of the brain, such as Dopamine, are chemicals that are so creative when regarding my imagination. For instance, I might daydream about a lake or river of Dopamine. Now that's slightly more creative for you, is it not?

Understanding

My intuition sends me into an understanding that reaches beyond our own reality. Happiness, satisfaction, as well as other emotion such as peace of mind extends beyond our own realm of existence; this is what my intuition tells me, because I can sense happiness and well, I don't know what to say. I'm speechless! Please, I need to help some people with serious issues so goodness sake, I haven't done many things that I like, for what seems like a indefinite amount of time, even though it is really only about 4 years. 4 years during which I didn't play video/computer games, as well as go to fast food. For goodness sake, I shouldn't live like this, should I? Once again, thanks for listening!

Welome back!

I just got back from not being home for about 4 weeks. So, welcome back! I think I made new friends as long as they respond to me on social media. In the meantime, think of something else I suppose. I've been at a rehab center against my own will which, if I had actually wanted to go there personally, I would have liked it. otherwise, I've been bored for about 90 percent of my time there, walking without a purpose. This place is in Grand Rapids and I met someone from Holt, as well as four or five people from the Lansing area!