I'm In Despair

Dear reader, whoever you may be, I'm in despair. I've been so since November of 2016. If you haven't read my blogs, then you wouldn't understand. Where are we to go now? I want to leave Earth and go home. This is not a cosmic thought so to say. This is like I want to get away from all of the psychological pain that I've been tormented with. I might as well have been physically, I mean to some it's the equivalent of acute physical torment. In other words, I've essentially been physically tormented throughout life. I've never been at ease throughout the years. There's a chance at something new though and that's what has to happen. Please leave any comments and/or suggestions. As I've already mentioned, I just want to leave this Earth very calmly and without any commotion. I want to be alive again, but not on this Earth; I want to be alive in a totally different world. Literally