I don't feel well today. I feel as though I will never get better. Life is too depressing sometimes, and so there is practically no room to have a great feeling. I don't deserve this because I'm not currently hurting anyone. My psychological state is so oppressive to me, I feel horrible inside often. I get the impression that pretty much nothing is worth it anymore. I've taken some absolutely bad turns, both psychologically and physically, but not intentionally. I seem to have good intent but it's not recognized by some. And then you might ask yourself, why do I have to write like this? Because I feel as though not writing this means I'm faking...faking happiness, faking that everything's alright. You can't replace one life with another, and so that's what I've been thinking recently. I can't go on not writing my thoughts, or else I will be sad.