Maciek here. My problems that I got in me mind will probably always be left... unexplained; I'm losing hope trying to explain what is wrong with this world. I have my own philosophy, and it is that life on Earth cannot be the end all because well, it's just too complicated. My life is therefore complicated, and what I realize about the world by my mind cannot be explained to people. So for goodness sake, my mind was once at ease and the life of mine while wandering this compelling world was once organized and now that my life is changing, I meet up with the realization that time will not go back or stop for me. Oh, how much I am in despair. Deep inside, I realize but am unable to explain the truth that I have discovered. Attitudes won't change, and I'm left with nothing but an empty space in my head. An empty space, which is actually knowledge that I have that I can't explain. Goodness sake, please let me get a job, a girlfriend, etc. And then nothing gets better. But even with all of the commodities of the world, I will still not feel better, for life of mine has diverged, and time cannot be purchased. Sorry if it seems like pessimism, but this isn't about pessimism. It's about truth
And don't tell me about depression because I'm not depressed, I'm in despair. I've gone beyond depression and into something even worse in which I am in a state where I just don't want anything, I don't desire anything anymore because it won't give me peace of mind. I don't know what else to say. If you can, leave a comment or something. I can't think of an analogy of the problem I'm describing, unless it's an analogy that will turn me into a schizo or make me seem mentally unstable
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