So I don't feel at home, but what exactly does that mean? When someone says this, it may mean that either they're uncomfortable, or that the atmosphere in which they are in is unpleasant, such as when someone's parents are not being nice to them; well, for me though that's not necessarily why. You see, regardless of environment, for some reason wherever I may find myself, I get the feeling of no peace and I feel unpleasant. Again, it's not because (for example) a chair which I sit in is uncomfortable, or my parents are creating an unpleasant environment; I feel unpleasant regardless of such factors. And that's how it is wherever I am, whether in a store or at home. The better saying so that you can better understand, would be the polish phrases "nie czuje sie u szebie" and "nie czuje sie sobom" which (if correctly spelled of course) are closer to what I was trying to let you understand. This world in which we reside, is not the world that is acceptable. It makes me lonely thinking about it but not because I'm alone but because it seems to me as if this world in which we live, is no longer a place for me. You may say, well you must live on because your discomfort will be one day redeemed by happiness. But I don't think that my troubles are worth less than happiness (happiness won't be able to pay off what I feel like. It would just be better to have some peace of mind.
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